mom, is that you?

survey steala

2004-07-26T13:04:06Z

The Ultimate Kissing Survey

Age of first kiss: 13

Number of people you've kissed: wooo were talkin triple digis

French kissing is: the best EVER

The worst kind of kiss is: slobbery or untonguery

The best kisser you know: the person im in love with .. duh :P

The worst kisser you know: brady hayward call em and tell em hes stupid

The celebrity you'd like to kiss: matt damon or orlando fucking bloom

Friend you would like to kiss: do you KNOW my friends?? :P

Favorite movie kiss: sweet home alabama

Do you kiss on the first date? yes .. it was awesome til i found the last person id like to kiss :P

Eyes open or closed? closed ... til recently ....

Average number of kisses you get a day: what kind are we talkin here

Ever kissed a friend's boyfriend or girlfriend? oohs ;x no comment

The last person you kissed: kevin

Best placed to be kissed: in the rain, thunder and lightning .. or hail? YA!!

Have you kissed someone of the same sex? um hmm do i want sex?? YES

What about the opposite sex? well der

Do you consider kissing cheating? to me it is .. but i like to think it isn't

The longest you've gone without a kiss: not long ..

The kiss you regret most is: every single one but THE one

Kissing in public is: awesome-o

Tongue rings are: hmm trailer lately .. everyone n their mom has one ew no offense

Two girls kissing is: cool unless they do it to be like hey looka me im kissin a girl

Two guys kissing is: cool unless they do it to be like hey looka me im kissin a dude

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oooh

2004-07-16T03:34:51Z

I think Indiana sent me a rainbow. I didn't have my camera tho. It was really wide and you could like see where it hit the trees it was awesome-o.

poosay

HOW

shes gettin so big ..

i yam what i yam

2004-07-12T06:24:55Z

dowg: you're too fatalisitic
nicki: no passionate lol
dowg: uhu
nicki: is that such a bad thing
dowg: dunno...what do you think?
nicki: i like it that way but i guess it comes off as denial
dowg: i wouldn't say denial
dowg: you just go up so high.....but then you crash
dowg: i dunno...i guess that can be good
nicki: so that makes me what .. crazy?
dowg: nope
dowg: makes you you

I feel fate is a reason to do something but alot feel it's an excuse for making a bad decision..

The only thing I can do is listen to my heart and hope for the best ..

right?

Today was a good day and I don't know if i could be happier about it ..

:)

finally i be doin this yasy for me

2004-07-07T05:11:50Z

1. What is your full name? Nichole Ann Lies about my middle name COCO
2. What color pants are you wearing right now? no pants but my panties are DANGEROUS
3. What are you listening to right now? my puter humming
4. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number? 99 or 54
5. What was the last thing you ate? tacoooo
6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? nichole blue .. i should invent it
7. How is the weather right now? brr too cold for jew lie
8. Last person you talked to on the phone? my mommie .. she had to tell me the stereo i installed in her car a few weeks ago magically fell onto the flo
9. First thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes
10. Do you like the person who sent this to you? um well i stoled it .. but i love the person i stoled it from
11. How are you today? i am ssssssupperr thanks for askingggg (with a lisp)
12. Favorite Drink: hmm diet a & double u
13. Favorite alcoholic drink: ohh cheeseburger in paradise's cheeseburger in paradise yummmmmmm
14. Favorite Sports to watch: football
15. Hair Color: blondeeee
16. Eye Color: boo
17. Do you wear contacts: yesh
18. Siblings: no :/
19. Do you have a tattoo? ya and i don't want it no mo
20. Favorite Month? MAY yay fo may
22. Favorite Food? bagels with cream cheesie lately .. from dunkin donuts .. toasted hmm
23. Last Movie you watched: I tried to watch american psycho 2 but my replaytv was a bitch and made me watch queer eye fo the straight guy ..
24. Favorite Day of the Year: memorial day or de 4th of joo lie
25. Are you too shy to ask someone out? no
26. Summer or Winter? summer
28. Chocolate or Vanilla? vanilla
29. Do you want your friends to fill this out too? well, if they are fucking bored and feel the need- that answer was plagiarized lemme site (wagnike2).
30. Who is most likely to respond: lol
31. Who is least likely to respond? lol hmm out of the two people who read my shit who took it already
32. Living Arrangements: lol residing in the village of Hard-on situated on the side of Peterson mountain
33. What books are you reading? lately my cat book :P
34. What's on your mouse pad? on nicki's- a sheltie
35. Favorite Board Game: ohh scattergories? scrabble? uno? BOGGLE you dumb fucks who won't play with me :/
36. What did you do last night? I went n had a cookie out at the state park n went drivin golfy balls
37. Favorite Smells: fireworks, gas, my ****** after it was ******* (my absolute fav)
38. Can you touch your nose with your tongue? no i suck... but i can if i push it :P
39. What/who inspires you? HOUSE OF FUCKING PAIN lol
40. Favorite Flower: calla lillies .. LILy
41. What is the first thing you think of when you wake up in the morning? sigh
42. What day is it, & what time is it? Joolie 7th at 12:55 eastern standard timee

[Body]
1. What do you most like about your body?: lol ewww my feet
3. How many fillings do you have?: zip
4. Do you think you're good looking?: well i don't think im a total dog
5. Do other people often tell you that you're good-looking?: not often, no

[ Fashion ]
1. Do you wear a watch?: yesh i like my damn watch but my damn watch don't like me
2. How many coats and jackets do you own?: err like fo
3. Favorite pants color?: blue jeans
4. Most expensive items of clothing?: my damn snowboarding pants
5. What kind of shoes do you wear?: nikes (pronounced one syllable according to me) loud ass flippy floppies ..
6. Describe your style in one word: konichiwa

[ Your Friends ]
1. Do your friends 'know' you?: no .. only a very select few
2. What do they tend to be like?: Well most of my friends .. um nice ... ya nice
3. Are there traits in you that are universally liked?: apparently not..
4. How many people do you tell everything to?: one

[ Music/TV/Film/Books ]
2. Most listened to bands/artists: system of a down, pearl jam, beastie boys, house of pain, eminem .. it depends
3. Do you find any musicians good-looking?: god are all lead singers not hot? well .. most .. ok some ..
4. Can you play an instrument: the skin flute
5. Type of music most listened to?: it depends .. a lil of everything lately
6. Type never listened to?: classical
7. Tour of your dreams?: Im still kickin myself about not goin to woodstock in 94 :P its not a dream tho and i don't think there is one of my dreams lol

[ Clothing/Hair ]
1. Do you own any plaid clothing?: hmm ... no
2. Do you own Converse shoes?: YES YAY FO CHUCKS
3. Do you own Saucony shoes?: no
4. Do you own old school Nikes?: no
5. Do you wear tight pants?: yes
6. Is there more than one zipper in your pants?: some of them yes
8. Do you own a messenger bag?: no lol
9. Do you wear your messenger bag across your chest?: no
10. Do you own braces?: no lol .. i have like a leg brace somewheres
15. Do you think mohawks are cool?: no
18. Do you own a bandana?: yes
19. Do you wear plugs in your ears?: when i schwim in my right ear cuz it bites
21. Have you ever used duct tape as a sewing substitute?: more than i should admit
22. Do you own one or more objects with studs or spikes in them?: no

(i guess there's no number 23-30)

[ Habits/Beliefs ]
31. Do you smoke cigarettes?: no
32. Do you smoke cloves?: no
38. Do you wash your hair less than once a week?: no
39. Have you ever gone a week without a shower?: no
41. Do you know who Jack Kerouac is?: no
42. Do you like Mr. Kerouac?: sure
44. Are you a member of the Makeout Club?: puh lol
45. Do you say "rad"?: in like 1984
46. Do you say "rockin'"?: no
47. Do you say punk "rawk"?: no
48. Do you shout the word "oi"?: no
49. Do you say "punk's not dead"?: no
50. Do you say "punk is dead"?: no

(51, 52, where did you go?)

[ Music ]
53. Do you like bands with "the"?: hmm no i guess not
54. Do you ever precede your own name with "the" at the beginning?: nope but i like puttin Mrs. and Mr. in front of stuff Mr. Grumpy Gills -- YEA HAY WOOT
57. Are Blink 182 fans posers?: no way... and poser accusers are dumb, for the record. if you wanna like all kinds of music, have at it. SIGH.
58. Do you have frequent debates over what exactly constitutes a sellout?: nah i ignore all that (wagnike2).
59. Have you ever brought the headlining band food?: lol headlining band food lol
60. Do you have show flyers affixed to your walls?: no

blah

2004-06-24T04:26:43Z

I really don't know what has been with me the past two days.

I felt like hell. Then today I went to get bloodwork I was supposed to get like last year. Cuz I couldn't eat anything in the past 2 days cuzza how i felt, and I had to fast for 14 hours for one of the tests. So after a buncha hub bub .. I get there .. sit down .. and passed out ... b4 they took any blood ... that sucked ass... and my arm hurts cuz they poked around in there like nobody's bidness cuz they said i was too dehydrated to be veiny :P Now I don't wanna ever get blood taken again lol

So I am leaving the hospital after this incident, and i see my friend Jimmy going in. Hes like all happy to see me and shit and is all like why don't you call us and blah blah. So then he answered the question for me... This is so embarassing to tell and its kind of why I don't really bother with any of my friends anymore... Nah i don't think i can write it down even... oh well ..

I hate taxes.

and insurance.

Ugh today sucked... but i feel a ton better than yesterday .. yay or somethin ..

hmmmm

2004-06-20T20:03:18Z

TYPE YOUR NAME WITH YOUR...

NOSE: nichole
ELBOW: nichole -- it helps if you have pointy ones
TONGUE: nichole
CHIN: nicholer
FEET: nichole - im embarrassingly talented with my feet
EYES CLOSED AND ONE FINGER: nichole
BACK OF YOUR HAND: nixchn90low3
PALM: hgiucxvghoiklew
MOUSE: nichokl,er -- i don't have a mouse cuz im on a lap but i have a dog yay he did it fo me
WRIST: icvjholer

im glad nobody saw me do this :P

sigh

2004-06-19T03:24:29Z

Im so stupid ... i got another kitten .. after I gave one away ....

Im stupid for other reasons too apparently ..

I think i might call her ghost because all of her pictures come out blurry. The one I have, I captured from a video of her..

coot kitty on da leftie

I suck

goodnight

hizzome

2004-06-13T23:51:58Z

I am home. ug. It was a long drive home .. alone. Leaving Hay is always so tough on me. Its like my favorite person lives so far away. Its just not fair.

I have not slept in about hmm 30 hours.

I am not even *that* tired. I was hella tired on the way home.

I stopped at a pet shop on the way home and there was a 4 week old kitten. It was so god damn cute it wasn't even funny. Its like pure white with a lil black toupee on the top of her head. One blue eye one gold eye. She can't be sold until the 30th. I want er .. but ya think i'd learn my lesson.

im too tired to type ..

whale ..

2004-06-08T04:06:30Z

Looks like we be heading back to Indiana tonite. In like an hour or so. I hope hay had fun here. She seemed to be bummed out a lil some of the time. if i asked her what was wrong she'd yell at me :( It hasn't been very nice here these past two weeks. Its going to be beautiful tomorrow. Figures.

I was incredibly allergic to the kitties. I told my mom and she found a home for mine ... but I was kinda better but .. i gave her away anyway. makes me sad ..

Im going to go get dressed n pack.. n drive 10 hours ..

MOW

2004-06-05T20:13:18Z

awww coot kitty

MEOW

She just isn't photogenic

HISS

PURR

SPIT

what i learned today..

2004-06-04T07:38:42Z

Do NOT for any reason .. dangle a meatball .. in front of a hungry kitty.

Either a ghost lives in Kevins office, or someone wants to kill us.

Cat poop still stinks like ass.

I like nachos grande.

SHMEETZ

Cats don't like dogs.

Wind in 60 degree weather isn't bad with hoodies.

I STILL hate vacuuming.

Flies do not taste good ... YAK

yippee

sippin on some bizurrr

2004-06-02T06:33:22Z

I still have the damn chill in me bones

We took a hike up to Campbells Ledge, or Camel's Ledge as some fuck nuts call it ... oh cuz ya know, it certainly looks like a god damn camel. There is some legend that an Indian and his horse went off or someone and somewhorse.
http://www.rootsweb.com/~paluzern/patk/marcytwp.htm
That is just so interesting to me... way more interesting than what was going on in france in 1862 at 3pm like they just need to teach you in skoo.

So we walk up and its like drip drop THUNDER BANG YAY ... and we hang out for some up there n we decide to leave .. the thunder rumbles again and its so cool cuz thunder is like popeyes.. the SHIZNIT... although i never had popeyes... so by now we are soaked, i decide to take my shirt off... i had on a bikini top .. it decides to hail ice bombs at us ... brrrrrr ... bastard hails. So we get down to the wet ass jeep i left the doors n windows off of .. with a muddy, stinky ass mofo of a dog. It was still fun tho ..

I had to cut my mom's cat's nails today ... and she has this one big bitch ass cat .. i put a towel over her head while i do it ... and she was on my mom's lap. I guess her bladder didn't feel like putting up with the nail clipping today. She pissed on my mom .. it was kinda funny although i couldn't laugh.

We listened to me sing the 12 days of xmas when i was like 5.. Although i didn't feel like singing anything below FIVVVEEE GOLDENNN RINNGGGS .. i think it was because i didn't know wtf was in the pear tree, or even that it was a pear tree ..

Its been fun with hay here .. i hope im keeping her entertained ..

My net connection keeps poofin ... i guess imma poof too :P

ENN WHYY SEEE

2004-05-31T21:47:59Z

It was fun, saturday we went to nyc .. and it was just fun walkin around, ridin subways, walkin ova bums, not knowing where to go thats cool. Being around a whole shitload of people who dont give a fuck what you think or what you do. That is, until you drop your camera. I swear all of Times Square turned around and gasped. It was funny. But, yay we didn't get raped. Theres a freakin ferris wheel in Toys r Us. FErris wheel = Iron. They had these lil grabber things where you squeeze the handle and it like pinches the top .. to like grab something high but it was a toy lol i dunno what good it was but for making big fucking black n blues on my arm. God help Kevin and his Kevin Kuts .. I think he'd bet his life that his ways are shorter but it just takes twice as long to get there ..

Today is Memorial Day.. one of my fav holidays of the year .. my most fav .. and its raining.... I woke up to rain and realized the top was off the jeep that sucked ... its waterlogged

I hate my mom sometimes ... SIGH

RIP Yukon ...

2004-05-29T17:44:17Z

Now there are 7 ...

I kinda feel depressed and guilty all at the same time... I keep thinking I'm an awful ferret mommy :/

The past couple days, he was acting really weird... then on Friday, I woke up to find him dead in his sleep ...

The lil rubber muncher ..... Ill miss his polar bear lookin ass ...

awesome-o

2004-05-27T06:38:02Z

i dunno why i keep sayin that lately .. like AWESOME-O ..

Ok, like, Hays been here 5 days and we accomplished nothing but a trip to the Crossings outlets lol ...

Hay n Bee (my ferret) bonded .. and hes sittin there on her stomach and bit her belly button ... and hes never opened his mouth to anyone in his life :P that was purty funny

bee & bellybutton

My dogs fuckin cute too :P

my doggy

monday .. well technically tuesday ..

2004-05-25T07:34:44Z

God .. time flies when Hays here .. seems like yesterday was Saturday ..

it turns out shes a pretty good fuzzie id'er after all ..

hail on tramps rules ... well besides hale YA!!

lol

PB is lead .. PB is NOT iron ... FErris wheeeellll .. lol PB and iron ..

A! U! get back here with my gold watch!
A! G! get back here with my silver watch!

Today it was kinda funny, we were driving on a country road .. and we see cop lights, so i slow down. We go past ... i see some girl cryin on the hood of a car .. her boyfriend consoling her ... then a cop shining a flashlight into a deers eyes .. lol it seemed to be just standing there minding its own bidness .. i guess he put it um under arrest ... DOE!! PUTCHO HOOVES ON YO HEAD AND DO NOT MOVE AN ANTLER POINT LENGTH!! YOU HAVE THE RIGHT TO REMAIN DOEY AND CUTE!!

im getting sleepy ..

shunned at the choppa .. lol ..

SPIDERMAN VIDEO .. i was in the back lol

long day

2004-05-20T05:35:34Z

I don't know why today was so long ...

eight fuzzies became ten ... and its good ... they all get along i can't believe it .. she had called a bunch of times asking if they were ok as if they were children .. i guess to her, they are .. i kind of understand ..

TWO more days ... yay

I hope it doesn't rain ..

unless it thunders ... ohhh .. i already deleted one entry about that :P

still waiting for my email :P

gooodnightttt ..

these chicks don't even know the name of my band ..

2004-05-17T07:00:03Z

I hate gettin songs stuck in my head ... imagine .. walkin around a supermarket singin .. my salsa makes all the pretty girls want to dance and take off their underpants... i made it into a ringer, now i just have to put it on my damn phone.

I don't know if its totally tramp, but that god damn thing is one of the best workouts ever .. Im pretty sore and i LOVE it ... thats the kind of shit that keeps me going .. my neck hurts more than id like it to .. some really smart fuck says .. oh you jump then land half on your neck and half on your back and poof ... i hear crunching ... i hate that .. I have spent hmm about probably ... hmm 7 hours on the damn thing since friday and todays sunday .. some of them whilst drinking ... they should really put a warning on there about drinking with tramps .. :P I have made definite progress ... its so funny to me how guys never seem to get any balance .. kevin says " oh well you girls have it easy since your balance is in your hips" ... lol or guys just suck ..

YAY for Haley n her plane ticket .. I shall be picking her up .. OR standing her up :P .. at like 2:30 on saturday YAY .. HIP HIP ...... im so excited to see er again :) Shes my soul sista :P Even though im a dinosaur ... :/

I get to ferret sit my friends two fuzzies for a weekend .. im not looking very forward to moving my ferret count up from 8 to 10 ... these two three month old ferrets are going to challenge my oldiepants ferrets' hierarchy. They are NOT going to be happy about that .. My ferrets range from old to older which is like 4 to 7 ... they haven't met a newbie for 4 years .. the last time i watched fuzzies for someone was when i got my youngest.. people like to push their problem ferrets on me to fix ... and i do ... usually ... i have like a ferret attitude fixer gift or something .. i think after owning them for so long .. you just kind of get it ..

god its 3 am .. time to poof :P

yay for tramps

2004-05-13T06:33:56Z

Well .. she was there halfway thru the tramp .. then poof .. and haven't seen her since .. did she fall off the face of the earth? There are plane tickets that need to be discussed!!

Someone said something to be so very disturbing to me today ... and it just lurks in my mind ... when i think about it, it makes me want to cry and i don't wanna SOOO...

On a lighter note ... we have a trampoline yay ... it was actually my first time on one today .. yea two feet of hair mos def sucks ass on it... ya move yer hair and yer like oh shit yer bout bouncin off .. and i put it together myself yay .. i put loki in the middle n bounced em n he got pissed off .. so i put em on the ground and he barks at me ... on off on off make up your minddd dog .. i still love em .. when we did get in the house, i saw this shiny thing on him and im like wtf is that .. and here it was like a long ass piece of tape from a box ... he was mad lol .. he collects lots of stuff in that fur of his .. sometimes ya find spaghetti i threw at him to see if it was done

We get to go to a sheltie reunion .. our dogs breeder is having a big get together with like all these shelties her show dogs have spawned in the years ... im looking for another good one ... so it gives me a good chance to see if i really got lucky with loki or if all her dogs are like him ... im a sheltie pusher ..

lol well today i am officially a dieting failure .. I have been on the south atkins diet, or so i call it ... for two weeks ... haven't lost a pound .. sticking by their rules ... like nobody doesn't lose weight on the damn thing ... except me .. the people i have asked said .. oh well you arent eating enough ... i wonder if i ate a whole tub of crisco, if it would fix things ..

Currently I am sleeping on a mattress on the floor because i am tearing out my bedroom .. if anyone EVER thinks of getting those lil faux bricks and faux mortar you put down .. DON'T DO IT ... god ... its a pain in the dick to tear it down ...

I worry too much for having a job thats about 2 hours a week ....

sigh ..

a round of applause...

2004-05-10T20:44:21Z

...to haley, for rescuing my journal from the purgers. :P

Its been a while ....

2004-05-05T06:49:25Z

Its kinda funny that i load this up.... and i just have no idea what happened b4 tonite ..

Everything seems like sort of a blur .... maybe its my non carb diet ... maybe its because ive consumed more meat products in one day than i ever have in my life. I know one thing ... I don't eat mac n cheese ... and im still the same weight ... maybe im just not meant for this ... many years ago (10) i tried to lose weight for a sort of competition ... and i could not ... and its very close to the weight i am now .. maybe its just not for me .. maybe i am who i am meant to be ...

Some dumbass gave me a sore throat in MAY ... MAYYYY ... everyone who knows me KNOWS that may is my favorite month of the year .. and now it feels like someone was ramming ... thats as far as i go with that .... it just hurts ... and its a lot deeper than normal ...

Speaking of my voice being deeper ... i call my FUTURE bro in law (aka my sis in law knocker upper) and hes like wtf is this ... and im like come on you don't know .... and then like i was like you don't know who this is ... and i guess he thought i said who is this or something and hes like well i asked you first ... so i got the idea that this guy who fucked my husbands sister until she was pregnant and continues to live in her dads house umemployed while she works full time while her grandmother takes care of their child .... is having a conversation with someone he doesn't know on a cell phone .. maybe trying to spread his dumb ass seed more ... why does that piss me off .... one time i asked him to go sledding since we were both night owls .. and hes like ok well ill just tell her i went ice fishing .... um ... hello ... im sure shed be ok with the truth ...

GOD i don't want to get started on family ...

I had a long talk with my friend tonite .. it was awesome .. it made me miss her more than ever ..

I need to get goin on a contract i need to write ..

and to stop thinking about macaroni n cheese ... n just anything carby :P

spinfold the leams ... spackle lackle tackle

2004-04-28T07:58:00Z

You owe me from last weekend :P

Is there a simpler way than spackling to hide the seams drywall makes in walls? NO! Maybe it would be a lot easier if I got paid the like $30 an hour drywall finishers make.... or if I knew how the hell to do it perfect like those crazy mofos. I guess I'm learning. Thats always a good thing.

God. What happens when a normal person walks into a tanning place?? I walk in the first three times I am there arguing with them because they want to put me in a bed for 6 minutes. So I come out (still white as a god damn slice of bread) and I'm sitting there reading a magazine waiting and this pale ass mofo walks in and they're like oh hey!! You haven't been here in a while!! Do you want to start at 10 or go right to 14?? WHOAAA I swear they see me coming .. I was about to roll the magazine up n schwap er in the face with it a few times. So 4 days later I get to the 13 minutes I deserved days ago. Now my ass is red .. ow .. The girl there when I came out is all like ... I am going to puke .. after she um smelled er hand and then ran to the back ... Im not sure I wanna know but god they apparently don't know how much that sucked for me .. its kind of like waking up to someone sitting next to you then all of a sudden they put their hand over their mouth n say ... I'm going to be sick then run the bathroom ... That was a long day for me ... in more ways than one :P

THERES A TOITLE ON MY PANTSSSS!

Those stretched out gd caps are annoying. Imma have to fix that...

serious mood swing ..

2004-04-27T07:39:42Z

How can I go from being from the most depressed I think I have ever been in my entire life to being what I am now. Before I was listening to the song El Paso, and I never listened to the lyrics really before and I just started crying. I can relate. I love lyrics. Thats a form of expression I can appreciate very much. Now I don't know about the songs --> I wanna fuck a dog in the ass by Blink182 or Shit Piss Fuck Cunt Cocksucker Motherfucker Tits oh gee, also by Blink182..

There are two reasons I am pretty excited right now. Well, I love fixing things, making things better, especially when its kind of a challenge. Like tonite for example, I took my entire cell phone apart to replace the housing on it. The phone I have isn't exactly 2 screws and its out, it was very involved. Took me over 2 hours. Theres nothing like the feeling of doing that then turning something on and it actually working. They charge 30$ to change these things. Now its pink and nobody will steal it at least lol :P

The other reason I'm excited, is that my best friend and I made up in a way that lead me to believe that she will be by my side forever .. I love her for that .. and I know everything will always work out between us.

Man, there was this news article earlier which is gone now. So I will replay by memory. In 1957 Air Force pilots thought they had spotted a boat like shape in the ice but the russians would not let anyone in because they insisted that explorers were spies. This boat like shape is believed to be Noah's Ark. The scientists say it's impossible that the boat could land at that altitude. God though, what if it is. I'm screwed then. They are starting an expedition sometime later this year ... ya .. fun stuff .. lol .. a brother for dogs .. lol god ...

HOLY EAR!! ... It is kinda holey, too :P

i don't know ..

2004-04-26T05:18:52Z

What do I hate most? Maybe I should make a list of the things I like. That list would be a ton shorter. I don't like liars. I don't like stuck up/conceited/snobs/people who think they're better than anyone else/overly um confident people. I don't like salesmen. What does anyone get out of it. I worry myself that I am too judgmental sometimes, ok a lot. Then I see how other people are and it kind of makes me feel less guilty. Salesmen. Someone who is trained to use psychology against you to change your outlook on things. Does that get categorized as liar? Not only do they tell you exactly what you think you want to hear .. but often back up a product they would not themselves purchase, and yet they make a ton of money doing this. Whale, that's if they're good liars/psychologists. So what do you think when you find out that your best friend and the person you care most for in the entire universe tells you something to lead you to believe that he/she is in one of the categories you cannot stand? Are you flattered that you are good enough to be friends with em or are you thinking ... God .. Do I really know this person? Are there that many people out there who get a kick out of cutting people down, to whom it sounds like fun .. like a blast .. yay lets go ruin someones life today woot. I don't know .. This person who said this is not someone I would ever associate with being like that. I thought she was so much like me, now because she said that and I had an opinion about it, that means she will never tell me anything again probably. Are we supposed to just agree on everything forever? Just because someone can tell another human being they are not up to par for society and should live their life in recluse and are not good enough for their standard, does that mean that that my opinion is not welcome and I'm worth just throwing away because of it? Well, it sure as hell feels like it. I should just keep my mouth shut.. but it's just not my nature ..